LXX

Sometimes i think people find joy in making things more complicated than it is. From something as simple as a mathematical concept to something a bit more personal, say a personal situation. Most people wish they had the ability to read people's minds, figure out what they really meant when they said what they did. But in raelity, knowing things juts makes things more complicated. Trying to figure out the human psyche ends with a messed up mind of your own. so live and let live. stop over analyzing and just take it for the way it is. 'Cause if there's one thing I've learned in life, it is that nothing is ever what it seems. But trying to figure out the truth can ruin things even more than you thought. Sometimes it IS better to be left in the dark. you won't like what you see when the light turns on.

Looking at his pictures, I remember what it was like not to have you. And that feeling is horrible. It's like they say "the best songs are the ones that take you back to when you first heard them" Same thing. The most powerful pictures are the ones that remind you of the times when you took them. What you felt when you took them. What he felt like. and No matter how stupid you were back then, it all unravels in the present. you know you were never really happy. and looking at this pictures, its like deja vu. I'm unhappy all over again.

The one reason I'm still hanging in there is 'cause i know what happens next, you happen next. And if going through 8 months of torture is the thing that's going to bring you towards me, then I'll go through it again. I'll look at the pictures again. I'll breathe him again. But i might not be able to wash his scent off me this time.