XI

Throughout the course of your life, you meet a whole bunch of people, some -people you talk to all the time and others- just a bunch of 'hi-bye' friends. You know the kind where in school they're meaningless unless they're the only ones you know within a 10 meter radius. WHen you see them around the hallways or in the caf, they're just..people...no one important enough to spend minutes on, maybe an occasional smile or wave but that's it. And then when you meet them at a social event outside of school, they are suddenly your best friends. Both running into each other's arms "omg what are YOU doing here?". Life's pretty ironic.

THen there are those other people that YOU notice but don't notice you. I don't mean those stupid high school crushes "omg why doesn't he look at me? *whine whine cry sob*" but real friends. The kind of people that give YOU simple his and byes while YOu expect more. Do you know why that happens? Because people are fake. WHen you talk to them they give you the impression that they like who you are and think of you as a close friend and you, being the simple one, believe them. And, then the next day or week, an occasion rolls along where both of you are present and guess what, all you get is a wave, and sometimes not even that.
So...time rolls by and you realize that you really like who this person is but it's obvious that you're not as special to them as they are to you. Life continues and evetually one of two things happen ...you just accept the one-way connection you have and forget about it or you keep trying and trying. And ironically enough, the moment you forget about this "friend"" of yours and stop analyzing the relationship you have , this "friend" somehow is caught spending time with you. not by choice obviously, but when worse comes to worse and all your or their other friends seem to disappear in a time of boredom and this "friend" is there, "chilling" starts happening. THat one occasion can be enough to start a spark all over again...this time not from your end. You might htink that the time spent with them wasn't anything great because u weren't going out to please them in any way, you were just being yourself but ironically, THEY now feel a connection towards you. The table has turned and again ironically, YOU don't feel it anymore. Now, you wonder why you bothered to be close to them in the first place while they're all up on you calling you everyday asking to chill.

Life is pretty ironic.