XXIV

Until you realize that things are never going to go back to the way they used to be, you are never going to move on. 'Cuz that's the thing about the past, it's simply just that. History. An incident that's over and done with, however recent it may be. The kisses and hugs happened so recently that it may blur the line between past and present, but that does not mean the line isn't there. And since you can't live in the past, you try to live in the present.
The only way to do that is to forgive. If you're still mad or upset over a situation, you're never going to get over it. Forgive whatever it is that is holding you back from moving on and do just that, move the fuck on. Because life does not stop whenever you decide to take a moment and sulk, and before you know it, life has passed you by. so, I forgave, and i'm trying to go on like i never knew you. You would think that that wouldn't be so difficult but it is 'cuz through all the lies and indecisiveness, somewhere deep down, i fell. Hard, pretty fucking hard. But, at the end of the day, that's all there is to it, me falling with no one there to catch me. You might have said it was a mutual thing, but I now know that that was a one-way street,and i was completely and utterly lost on it. So, as a goodbye, i'd like to say one last thing to you, you broke my heart and for that, i will forgive you, but i will not forget.